God , sorry but is it fair for me who trying so hard and have been struggle everyday just to get a great result but another person who dont study who always play around who not serious at class deserve the good result than me ? Yes, I know .I know that ,You have a better plan for us,for everyone in the earth.But can I know when is my time ? Or I should keep struggling ? Im tired .No ,I dont say that Im giving up .But Im just tired .Can I know when all of this will be end ? When should I stop trying ? Urgh I dont want this to be the reason im crying . I had it enough . Upsr,pmr,spm,final result for sem1 .You know? Aku dapat je result,mesti ada something buat aku menangis . except for Spm.Im proud for my spm result .I know 4A's is not that good to compared with 6,7 or straight A's result . But im satisfied .Yelah ,last minute study ,last minute insaf last minute everything .haha 4A' 6B+ .Alah not that stupid kan ? K , That time , i cry because i was too happy .hehe x but today , i cry because im not satisfied and i dont understand why .I've been struggle for 5 month ,study the whole day without missed,until I forgot to sleep ,to eat , until I ignore my boyfriend.But this is what I get ? Yes ! Life fair . Hmph sorry for being to emo . yes yes,aku bersyukur .Alhamdulillah .Alhamdulillah dapat result macam ni :') Alhamdulillah tak repeat paper ,takpayah aku menghadap subject yang sama .Ya Allah terima kasih ya Allah .But when I think about my college mate.god ,insecure kuasa 34855 kali . Its okay beela , maybe not now .Not your time , maybe soon . yeah soooo soon (+++ thinking)
Baba mama ,Im so sorry . Sorry for this sucks result.Maybe for me ,the result is okay .but for both of you ,nah .Beela ingat lagi,time Spm .you both really proud of me kan . Haha so cute when mama melompat .Time tu tengok tak effort beela mcm mana maa?Study last minute,tapi berat dari 48,terus 40 .Badan dari gemuk terus kurus ,muka dari comel terus susut :* ,bontot yang besar terus muat size usa 0 .Kau hado ? But yknow what ma ba,This time .My effort ++++ ,lebih dari Spm .Makan tidur mandi dengan nota .But badan je makin gemuk,size usa 2 dah ketat .lolz but this is what I get ? I promise, i try harder ,i try harder .more than what I've done for Spm.I just need you both . semangat tu penting . jerit lah ala ala pasukan sorak . 'GO GO BEELA' hehe next sem ni , my subject will be . ada dua PAD , satu macroeconomic, account , bel and ctu . so yeah ,wish me luck , This 1 dec I be back to Sarawak :-( Hmph ,gonna leave my boy again . *tearsdrop*
There's no such think "give up" in my life . xx
